ever since my old account got banned about 7 months ago (see: https://tengukuru.newgrounds.com/news/post/1423417), combined with the fact that this is the SECOND time i've lost a discord account (the first time around i lost it because i was asked to verify my age to look at an 18+ channel and i was underage at the time; around 12 years old), the fact that i lost all of my data from bots (I HAD AN ARCEUS (POKEMON JESUS) ON POKETWO GODDAMN IT), all my dms with friends, and just basically have to start all over from scratch has left me on the fence about creating another account

i don't wanna get too attached again and then get banned/disabled/my account stolen like last time/hacked and have to start all over again, that's like your level in an mmorpg game getting reset without your consent and you have to do all that grinding all over again

i do not want to go through the trouble of getting back my mutuals and my emojis again

..but then again... i don't really have anybody to talk to, let alone friends

LIKE I'M NOT DEPRESSED OR ANYTHING (I'D HATE TO COME OFF AS DESPERATE BECAUSE THEN I'D HAVE PEOPLE BECOMING FRIENDS WITH ME OUT OF PITY AND I DON'T WANT THAT)

i'm just

..bored. like i've got so much free time on my hands i end up not knowing what to do with it half the time (apart from drawing and slaving away watching niche anime via totally legal streaming websites 🏴‍☠️🏴‍☠️)(if you don't want me to pirate shit then don't lock shit behind a paywall and more importantly DON'T GIVE ME THE OPTION NOT TO PAY)

so i might make another account

but seeing as to how easy it is to lose your account on discord, i'm not sure

i would have a poll on my twitter account but like.. i don't have a good following, that'd be like talking to a brick wall

so idk